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Etsy Shop

Hey guys-

It has been AGES since my last update. Things have been pretty crazy for me and eventually I will let you all in on that, but for now I just really wanted to announce/pimp two things.

Thing #1: My Etsy Shop

Mother's day is coming up and I would be just OVERJOYED if you would consider buying her an item from my etsy shop. Every little bit helps :)

Thing #2: I will be trying to sell a poster soon on ebay. It is a Harry Potter GoF poster signed by 22 cast members and comes with a certificate of authenticity. It is 27x40 inches.


Daniel Radcliffe (Harry Potter)
Rupert Grint (Ronald Weasley)
Emma Watson (Hermione Granger)
Tom Felton (Draco Malfoy)
Ralph Fiennes (Lord Voldemort)
Eric Sykes (Frank Bryce)
Timothy Spall (Peter Pettigrew aka Wormtail)
Robert Hardy (Cornelius Fudge)
Alan Rickman (Severus Snape)
Gary Oldman (Sirius Black aka Padfoot aka Snuffles)
Maggie Smith (Minerva McGonagall)
Michael Gambon (Albus Dumbledore)
Robbie Coltrane (Rubeus Hagrid)
Miranda Richardson (Rita Skeeter)
Mark Williams (Arthur Weasley)
Jason Isaacs (Lucius Malfoy)
Roger Lloyd-Pack (Barty Crouch)
Brendan Gleeson (Alastor 'Mad Eye' Moody)
Shirley Henderson (Moaning Myrtle)
Frances De La Tour (Madame Maxime)
Warwick Davis (Filius Flitwick)
David Bradley (Argus Filch)

There is another of these posters on ebay right now with 10 less signatures with a starting bid of $2,300 and one that sold recently for over $3000. Those two were framed however, and mine is not because I was never able to afford framing it. I still have to take pictures of it, but if anyone is interested I will sell it for $1500 as-is (this is going to be my starting bid on ebay w/a Buy It Now of $2000).

I had a total of three signed posters at one point but I donated two of them to charity auctions and had intended to keep this one for myself. Times are hard and money is not just tight, but non-existent- so I've got to sell it as it is the only thing I own worth anything anymore as I have already pawned all of my video games and jewelry in an attempt to stay afloat recently.
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Lookbook & Gen

Hello all! I know it's been a long time.

I am living in Japan now, and have been for almost two months. It's been great! I'm glad I'm finally getting to do what I want with my life!

I'm sorry to all the LJ friends that I just sort of abandoned. I really haven't felt like myself for the last couple years... and I think I'm finally started to get back into the swing of being me.

AAANNNNDDDD I've been doing more bento boxes since I've been here- you can see them all here--- Click Me!!!
stab yourself

I just need to vent.

I haven't updated in forever. I've been super-busy with school. I wouldn't even be updating now, except I really need to vent, and since I am living with my parents... and they are currently home... I can't call any of my friends and do it over the phone.

This past year I returned to school. I've been doing better than I ever have. I'm on the Dean's List, a member of the Honors College and accepted to a fantastic study abroad program in Japan. I couldn't be happier with all of this. I am supposed to be leaving for Japan on August 31st. I am supposed to be living and studying in Japan for a year. Problem is, it costs money. I have exhausted my financial aid and federal grants and loans. I've been denied every scholarship I have applied for (out of the few that I qualified for, because apparently 26 is too old to apply for a scholarship), I applied for a Sallie Mae loan and got denied because my credit was destroyed when I got laid off, and I still have 20 thousand dollars to come up with somehow in the four months before I leave. I have a couple of fund raising ideas that I will put into effect as soon as I get my next check... but I'm freaking out. I'm really thinking that after all of the stress of the application process and getting accepted and finally feeling like I was doing the right thing with my life that I'm not going to get to do it because it's just FAR too much money. I asked my dad to co-sign on a loan with me and he just can't do it. I asked him if there were someone else he could think of that I could ask, if he thought it would be bad to ask my grandparents and he said that there is NO WAY I should even ask. I feel like a loser sitting in my room crying over this. I mean, I've still got four months to try and figure something out... but right now I'm just feeling like it's impossible.

Please excuse that there is pretty much one giant run-on sentence, but I just can't care about grammar when I'm this upset. I guess venting about it didn't really make me feel that much better.
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Thanksgiving and Such

Well, Thanksgiving went well. I realized halfway through the night that if I get accepted to JCMU for the full year that I wont be sharing Thanksgiving with my family next year... which then made me think of Christmas, New Years, Birthdays... a whole year of events that I wont be around for. It's sad, especially now that Noah is starting to walk, and talk and things. I don't want to miss his second birthday. At the same time it made me think- "Wow, this time next year I could be in Japan... and that's so sweet!"

I've got about a million homework assignment to do today. My teachers all gave me a ton of work to do over break. They are trying to squeeze any extra knowledge that they can out of us before the year is over I'm sure. Only two weeks left! I'm so excited. This semester has gone by really fast. I'm so happy that I am finally back in school and that the end is in my sights. I have A Plan now. After a year in Japan I should have a few more semesters to get my degree, then I'm going to go for my Masters. Unless I win the lottery or something I will be living with my parents until then, because I realize now that the only way I'm going to make it through school financially is if I live with as few financial burdens as possible, which means rent, utilities, and I also save a lot on food costs. So I will be here till I am 30-ish. Eesh. I guess the idea doesn't bother me as much as it used to. It's tough economic times, sacrifices must be made. Like personal freedom.

I should have every debt I've ever incurred paid off by the time I go to Japan. That will feel nice. I've already knocked out quite a few of them... but there are a couple of big ones that I need to pay off. In the spring I've decided I'm going to drag everything from my storage space out and have a giant yard sale. By the time I have my own place to put all that stuff, it will have cost me ten times more that if I just bought it new. I'm going to make a list of all of the things I have and post in in my journal... so if anybody wants/needs anything they can let me know and I'll give you the buddy discount :) I've got like thirteen boxes alone of just kitchen supplies... so if anyone likes to cook... keep an eye out. My beautiful matching coffee machine and microwave... both brand new... both sitting in storage for a year now. So many things... I will miss them.
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Life... in general

So, my first semester at EMU is almost over. I just finished registering for next semester. I am thrilled that I am finally getting my life together. Next September I will be going to live in Japan for a year, going to school at JCMU in Shiga. I'm really excited but also panicked on how I am going to come up with not only the money to pay for school itself, but I have to bring all of my spending money for the year since I am not allowed to hold a job in Japan with a student visa.

I'm also really glad that I made the decision to start from scratch as far as Japanese courses go, because while I could have tested into a higher level, I now feel much more comfortable with the foundation of the language and it has been making new concepts a lot easier to grasp. Not that my Japanese is very good mind you... I still have a ways to go.

My nephew took his first steps on my sister's birthday last week. I think that's awesome. Also, her husband has been doing a lot better. I know some of you knew he was going through a difficult time with his cancer and the surgeries and recovery weren't going as planned (reminds me of someone else I know... ) but he is doing great now and returning to work soon.

I apologize to people who wait at this journal for news of fan-fiction updates and I apologize for letting you down thus far. I've tried to continue writing several times and it just isn't working out. I do plan to eventually finish Boy Who Cried Potter... but once I can manage to finish it... I'm pretty sure that's going to be it for me as far as fan-fics go.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. It seems like over such a long period of time I might have more to say... but I've got nothing.
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Here I am

So... this is just a note to let everyone know what I'm going to be doing sometime this weekend.

I am deleting about a million of my entries, re-vamping my layout, doing a friends cut... and starting semi fresh. I've been wanting to do this for a while now. Mostly, it's because there are several fandoms that I do not take an active part in anymore. I still enjoy the things, but I am sort of turned off by a lot of the things I see in fandom in general, and this time away has really made me realize that I don't need it. I plan on working on getting
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So... this is just a note to let everyone know what I'm going to be doing sometime this weekend.

I am deleting about a million of my entries, re-vamping my layout, doing a friends cut... and starting semi fresh. I've been wanting to do this for a while now. Mostly, it's because there are several fandoms that I do not take an active part in anymore. I still enjoy the things, but I am sort of turned off by a lot of the things I see in fandom in general, and this time away has really made me realize that I don't need it. I plan on working on getting <lj-user="hp_stillness"> up and running again with some new co-mods. I hope I can accomplish this all before Monday... but I have a tendency to procrastinate, so maybe not.
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I am back with the internet now! Yippee!


I am officially living in Kalamazoo with a group of friends. We hi-jacked Melanie's old futon bunk in the middle of the night and I now rest peacefully on the top bunk :) I always wanted a bunk bed growing up... so this is like a life long dream come true. It's like a sleepover party every night with Kim and Dan sharing the bunk under mine. Woo for living out childhood dreams!

I have yet to receive my unemployment money, and I actually got a letter the other day saying that I didn't qualify because I "voluntarily quit" my job... which is bull, so I called my previous employer and told them the issues I have been having and about the letter and they got it cleared up (I hope) and I should finally get a check within the next two weeks.

My birthday is fast approaching. This Saturday! I'm 25, halfway through 30 already and still no kisses! My new year's resolution is to meet more people. This is a good area to do that, seeing as how it is a college town, there are a million kids my age here.

Um... what else... Kim, Dan and I recorded ourselves singing a song and Dan flipped out about it and is now insisting we do Open Mic @ this local coffee place.

Reveals were posted for hd_holidays so I can finally post my story in my own journal, though I plan to add to it, because there were things I wanted to get more in-depth with that I didn't get the chance to because of time constraints. I am also taking part in hd_worldcup for the first time this year, so I'm pumped about that.

Also, I will be able to resume "Boy Who Cried Potter"... finally.

My sister had her baby! Dec, 31st 2008: Collapse )

That's all really.

I'm very glad to be back!
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It feels like right now in my life everything is changing.

I'm a bit afraid to see where this leaves me, but at the same time I woke up this morning with a strange sort of optimism. Like all the things that are happening right now are taking me in the direction I was meant to have gone in some time past. I feel like there is something waiting for me that is going to be a part of who I am for the rest of my life once I find it.

Tomorrow is my last day here in the office, and this weekend will be the first time I'm moving more than ten minutes away from where I grew up. My sister is going to have her baby, most likely next week. I'm leaving behind a friend who I haven't been away from since we became friends in the first place. I just lost a friendship that I thought I would have till I died. I'll be going to school somewhere new, with renewed purpose.

It's all very horrifying. I've been extremely emotional this past week. I'm strangely emotional typing this --I feel a thrill at the possibilities and opportunities I know wait for me, but upset about all the things that I'm moving away from. The differing emotions are sort of making me nauseous.

I know this is the right thing to do. Every instinct tells me it is... but I'm scared. That my instincts are wrong. That I'm making a rolling snowball of bad decisions.

When I think about Noah, my sister's soon-to-be son, and playing with him, and his little baby face smiling... I have to fight not to cry with how happy it makes me. It's the main reason why I am making this move. At the same time... it makes me equally upset thinking that this move was a large catalyst to the friendship I recently lost, a friendship that I thought I would have with and around me if and when I ever had a child of my own.

But I know this move is something I need. I can tell, I just *know*, that my life is meant to go this way --but what if it's not?

I always thought I was someone who could roll with the punches, but this whole thing has me on the verge of a breakdown. How can one small move feel like the best thing in the world but fill me with dread I have never known so completely? I feel like this move is the metaphorical fork in the road. The one big thing that will make the difference in the end.

Maybe it's just that it's happening so fast, or that it's happening so soon, but I feel like I'm not ready for whatever chapter I'm on, but that I would be making a huge mistake if I didn't go ahead.

I got new glasses yesterday, and in a strange way I feel like I've got a whole new face... and I just hope that it's the right one to head into this with.
Thats Mental

The Ecomony is Mental

Well, I knew it would eventually come to this, because you can't be an Auto Supplier in Michigan without feeling the wrath of the economy.

A bunch of people were let go today. In an attempt to avoid this, my company did the 'partial layoffs' that I fell victim to a couple months ago, the reason why I had to move back in with Mom and Dad. Today it got a lot worse. Luckily, I am the only person in the company that knows how to do certain aspects of my job, that HAVE to get done... so instead of getting laid off, effective the 15th of December, I will be working on an 'as needed' basis. So there might be times when I don't work at all, and other times when I am very busy.

It was awkward, my boss was crying while telling me, but I had already prepared myself. I felt strange trying to reassure her that everything was going to be okay, even when she kept telling me that it wasn't okay. I'm the least of my concern. I would be upset if they didn't cut my hours, not that I don't want a job, but I don't have children to support, I don't have a house to lose... many of the people who were laid off today do. I know one person, who for a fact, is going to lose her house... and I'm supposed to be upset for myself?

Some of these people have worked for the company for thirty years... and I just started a year and a half ago... I can't bring myself to feel bad for my own sake. I feel horrible for everyone else, and guilty that I get to keep my job at all. I feel bad for Betty, for the stress she put herself through having to tell me that I was going to loose more hours, and my benefits.

It's going to be a long, cold winter.